Clouded Doubts

Why these foul moods? I know I didn’t sleep well, still, I should not feel this lifeless and blah and depressed. Moments of deep loneliness this morning even as I sit with Pom. Symptoms of the hot pressing weather or the incessantly slow Thai way of life?? The same old questions run through my head, “Can my research plan really work?” I feel so small and inexperienced, unable to tackle such a huge endeavor. Yet, I know in my gut I can do it and my mind flits past the negative thinking more quickly now and settles back on my past conclusion of – “hey, what would I rather be doing? Because there will be challenges and stressors with any path….” I have to settle on that and accept it or go crazy thinking over all the alternatives.